Monday, November 30, 2009

Too Late, I'm Happy!

Old San Juan, Puerto Rico 2010
At this point there is very little I can do about my happiness. What I mean is that I have practiced the art of happiness so diligently and intensely that the student has become a teacher. Do you now how difficult it is to unlearn math? If you were a true student and dedicated to learning math, you will never forget the basics. You can go for years without practicing math and when you have an opportunity to use your skills again the information will come back - maybe slowly, maybe quickly- but it will. The skill of happiness is imbedded into my being, there is little I can do about it now.

Another thing that makes it difficult to unlearn my happiness, is that I have some sort of happiness gene. I have always been cheerful and happy. I haven’t always been spiritually healthy but I have always smiled. I don’t claim to be nice or pleasant but I am happy. I don’t claim to not get angry or sad or frustrated but those things are fleeting illusions. I acknowledge and I move on.

Please don’t confuse my happiness for clueluessness or being the hapless optimist. Yes, logic leads me to believe that certain things should unfold a certain way. This has been my training for decades, but recently I discovered that logic is not the end-all-be-all. I have intuition. I can manifest. I can let things unfold without my control. Knowing that every moment is something new and exciting allows me to “ lose control”. What do I mean by lose control?

When I lose control, I let go of the need to over think, be attached to an outcome or live in the future. Although I plan for the future and most of the time I have a plan to achieve my goals, I have accepted that the Source ALWAYS has a better plan. With that knowledge, I let go of the control. I let my wishes be known and then I walk toward my goals (actually I fly) and let the Source do the rest.

So you are probably asking - what does this have to do with happiness? I am happy because I am free. I am smiling because I am free. Without the burden of planning every step of my wishes, I allow and believe and know that my destiny is a co-creation of the divine Source and me. This makes me happy.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

A Lesson in Energy 1

Ocho Rios, Jamaica 2009
I speak about energy often. I am usually not referring to the current that allow light bulbs to shine or your radio to hum. Although it is similar and from the same Source, I am referring to the power and vibration around each and every object and person, seen and unseen. All things have an energy. You can place a value on it if you would like. Just remember it is our perception that assigns value. You can value it negative or positive, good or bad, sad or happy…whatever helps you communicate with the object. Because I am extremely sensitive, energy from people, places and things communicate with me easily. It may not be the intention of the people, places or things, but I “pick up” their energies as naturally as I breathe. It is almost effortless.

If you practice, you can feel your way through this life instead of only thinking or reacting or knowing. All of those are a part of the human experience but most of us have been taught to repress our feelings. We dismiss gut feelings. We dismiss the energy coming from that person or thing. We have devalued energy. Not only is it useful, it is divine. It is the closest communication you can have with the Source or the source.

The Source is God for some, the Universe for others and many other labels, but what ever you choose to call it or know it as, “it” is what we all are -the Divine, the Source. The source, on the other hand, is the person, place or thing that is communicating with you with its energy. In other words you communicate with all things through energy - God, trees, your car, your sister, animals, etc. You must learn how to relax and allow to communicate effectively.

This energy (communication) can have weight, it can be thick. It can be light and airy, but remember it is all perception. If there is energy that weighs you down, remove it. If you are giving energy away to something (or someone) that is not taking you toward who you really are or it is being taken away from you by something (or someone) that is not helping you remember who you really are, why bother? I call those type of energies, “stuff”. Once you relax and allow, things will happen. You will begin to notice energy from things that weigh you down or lift you up. When that happens, you can discern.

Do an energy assessment of your life. Get rid of all the “stuff” that does not serve you well. When you have done that, you will open yourself up to clear communication with the Source and the sources that serve you well. We will talk about energy assessments at a later date. Until then allow your body and spirit to listen (communicate) with your surroundings. Let me know how it goes.

Talk to you soon!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

In this game the score is always ZERO

Santa Monica, California 2010
Are you competing with someone and they don’t know that they are in the game? Do you expend energy to out dress, out smart, or generally out do someone? Do they know this? Do you harbor feelings about a person and the way you express these feeling is to “ be better” than them in some aspect? Does any of this sound familiar?

Let me give you an example: In high school, Tracy was the popular cheerleader. You have resented her for years. This is not unusual, your typical high school angst. Fast forward twenty years. You and Tracy are coworkers. Your goal every day is to make sure you are dressed better than Tracy. You also make an extra effort to let Tracy know how happy you are in your marriage (even if this is not true). You make sure that she knows that your house is bigger and your kids are smarter. The most absurd behavior of all is that when Tracy is nice to you, and she is always nice to you, you assume that she is being insincere and disingenuous.

You have an agenda and a game plan and Tracy has no idea she is the opponent.

This type of behavior is an energy waster. The energy you are using to “one-up” someone could be used to explore the feeling behind the behavior. There is ALWAYS a root to the expression. Your expression can be a beautiful rose or an invasive weed. You can use that energy to forgive. You can use that energy to genuinely treat someone well. Exploring your feelings but not living in the past forces you to remember who you really are and helps you to become more authentic. How awesome is that?

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Things that make me smile

Deep Bowls, Mugs, Soup spoons – I don’t know why these things make me all warm and fuzzy inside. Maybe it’s the comfort that they symbolize. I am not a coffee drinker but sometimes I drink my water from a mug. I don’t use the handle. I put both hands around it and absorb the shape. These things share a roundness. Maybe I like them because they have a physical form of acceptance. You can fill them up. It doesn’t matter what you pour into them, they will receive.

Two of my favorite people -nephew and cousin
Children who have dressed themselves- There is something so syrupy sweet about a child who has dressed themselves. You wanna brighten my day? Point me to the little girl who is wearing a ballerina tutu, green corduroy jeans, cowboy boots and a tiara. I love that their parents, at least once, allowed their child to express themselves without boundaries. So often children’s creative and intuitive gifts are suppressed because we impress our beliefs on them at an early age. If you see me on the street and it appears that I have dressed in the dark, know that I have channeled my inner child.

Ok, children again: Little girls with chipped fingernail polish – Maybe it says innocence. I don’t know. Some things I just can’t explain. I just love it for what it is!

When other people smile – Do I need to explain?

When people dream out loud – I am intuiting how joyful you will feel when the dream comes true. Awe.

Life partners – Not just couples, but people who are so spiritually in sync that they give you a jolt of energy when you are near them. They just “are”. They “be”. No words need to be spoken between them. These partners are not limited to romantic relationships, these can be friends, sisters, neighbors, parents, whomever. I know that love and it feels great.

The dog that lives on the next block – There is a dog that follows me for a few feet when I do my evening walk. He is excited when he sees me and I must say I am excited when I see him. Sometimes I look for him if he is not around. Here is the part that makes me smile: Sometimes he sits in the grass on the corner as though he is waiting on someone. On these days he does not give me any attention. When I found out why, I almost cried.

One day I saw him perk up and buzz with anticipation. A Honda Accord turned the corner and with only the sincerity a dog can have, he barked and “jumped for joy” as he followed the car to his home. He had been waiting for his human companion to come home. I suspect that the companion arrived later than usual on the days that I noticed the dog in waiting. Sigh.

The ducks that live in my neighborhood – They walk up and down the street as though they own property. It is so funny to me.

Children, once more -Those two front teeth that appear first and the background of gums and juicy saliva. Let me be clear, I like seeing this without having to experience the wetness of the uncontrollable mouth fountain! I am sure I will change my mind in motherhood.

This is my list for today. Tomorrow may bring another list. I wanted to share my list with you! What's on your list?

Monday, July 27, 2009

Love Letter

Someone I love - nephew
This is a love letter to those who

Love unconditionally, don’t take no for an answer, wear plaids and polka dots, dance in the rain, wear white after labor day, don’t live their lives believing there is a time and place for everything, defy rules, stood up for my rights, cry when they are happy, are over 20 and wear Wonder Woman underwear, are in love, walk barefoot on wet grass, love someone who doesn’t love them back, dream, go to the movies alone, decided to take that salsa class, choose happiness every time, questioned authority, smells like lavender and vanilla, believe dressing up-is a pair of jeans and a nice shirt, are comfortable in their own skin, have not decided what they want to be when they grow up, are silly and childish, don’t care what people think of them, do nothing on a Saturday, are shy and reserved but their inner life is deep and colorful, are passionate, color outside the lines, don’t take it personally, try to understand, call as soon as they get the phone number, go with the flow, love me and I don’t know it, who hear melodies all day, see the beauty in everything and everyone,

You are my joy!